Heys peeps that still come and read my uber dead blog! O: I know, I havent updated in like, forever. But I'll try to update more consistently again, okay? :D

I came across this on facebook just today. It's super sweet luh! :D

43 THINGS GIRLS WISH THEIR BOYFRIENDS WOULD KNOW

#1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.
#2 When she misses you, she's hurting inside.
#3 When she says it's over, she still wants you to be hers.
#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her.
#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.
#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don't let her go.
#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.
#8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.
#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.
#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she's beautiful.
#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don't say a word.
#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.
#13 When she's scared, protect her.
#14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.
#15 When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.
#16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.
#17 When she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.
#18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.
#19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.
#20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.
#21 When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.
#22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.
#23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.
#24 Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.
#25 Don't let her have the last word.
#26 Don't call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.
#27 Say you love her more than she could ever love you.
#28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.
#29 When she's mad, hug her tight and don't let go.
#30 When she says she's OK, don’t believe it, talk to her about it, because 10 yrs later she'll still remember it.
#31 Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.
#32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.
#33 Treat her like she's all that matters to you.
#34 Don't ignore her when she's out with you and your friends.
#35 Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
#36 Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.
#37 Let her into your world.
#38 Let her wear your clothes.
#39 When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.
#40 Let her know she's important.
#41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.
#42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"
#43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you'd read it too.

I'm such a romance nut. O:

The past few days have basically been just: house-jumping, wii-spamming, and sailing. That's basically been how I've spent my holidays so far. .__.
I've played for all the days this week already, and I'm going to do so again tomorrow morning, when the normal gang of people come over again. Sheesh, I'm getting so bored of it. O:

"When a girl builds walls around her, it's not because she wants to avoid a man, nor is it because she wants to protect herself. She does it to find someone, who would be man enough to break these walls... Just to be with her."

Read this quote somewhere, and well, I think it's pretty meaningful to me. So with this fresh thought in my mind, I'm going to move ahead.

I don't want it to end this way.

Don't leave me hanging here.

Please.

(Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me?)

Have you noticed how distant we have been, how far we have drifted?

Do you know how I feel about it, feeling like I'm trapped outside, trying so hard to get in? You have the key, but you won't unlock the door; Why?

I've waited, and I still am, but the longer this silence ensues, the more harm it will do. It will not test what we have, it will destroy what we thought we had.

Why am I writing this, I wonder, when there's hardly a chance that you'll read it? Maybe you do, but will you respond to it?

I feel like an idiot, but still.

I'll continue to be one, still holding onto the promises, though I know that they've already been long forgotten, broken.

My life is like a bottle of soft drink, shaken too hard, too vigorously, and opened all at once, such that the contents pretty much explode out.

Now, why can't I ever learn not to bottle up all that unwanted gas, and instead, let it out bit by bit?

I SAILED LASER RADIAL TODAY.
It was super awesome. :D

For one, it's hell more stable that a byte, and you feel that within moments of getting onto the boat. So I was happily hiking and working on my angle (which was super good cause I managed to point really high), and I sheeted in all the way, something I can't do on a byte at the same wind conditions as today. Sure, when I first went on it, the wind was like, 2 knots, but it picked up to 7 knots in awhile. At 7 knots on a byte, I have to be super careful already, cause it's super unstable for me, and once it hits 8 knots, I have to depower all my lines. ): The wind did hit 8 knots today, and when it did, I couldn't handle already. Rawr.


Ah well, guess I should train hard and get better, yep!


Now for a blog quiz. Took it from Chenwei's blog!


01. Who was your last text from?
Joel Tay, haha. About this un-solvable maths question that we were all trying to do at NSC today, that finally got solved.


02. Where was your msn display picture taken?
In the school hall, on A level results release day, before our ushering job began. :D


03. Your relationship status?
On Standby mode.


04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
Yep.


05. What is your current mood?
Confused.


06. How many siblings you have?
1.


07. What is your brother's/sister's name?
Matthew.


Where would you wish you were right now?
A month or two ago, I would be able to tell you where I'd want to be. Now, I don't know.


09. Have a crazy side?
NICOLE? NOT HAVE A CRAZY SIDE? WHAT HAS THE WORLD BECOME?


10. Ever had a near death experience?
Hmm, literally, or figuratively?


11. Something you do a lot?
Be childish. YAY.


12. Angry at anyone?
Maybe.


13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
Nothing, but there's something stopping the other side from coming through.


14. When was the last time you cried?
Idk, but I think it was quite recent.


15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Of course.


16. What you think about when you are falling asleep?
Depends on my mood.


17.Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
My mum.


18. What is your favourite song?
Atm, it's 21 Guns by Greenday.


19. What are you doing right now?
Stoning.


20. Who do you trust right now?
Those I trust can tell that I trust them.


21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Sentosa opti/byte open championship 2007.


22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
What do you think?


23. Who is the friend that lives closest to you?
Idk, I don't really know exactly where they live.


24. Describe your life in one word?
Confusing.


25. Who are you thinking of right now?
What makes you think that I'm thinking of someone?


26. What should you be doing right now?
Homework.


27. What are you listening to?
I will follow you into the dark - Death Cab for Cutie


28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
My carebear, WHISPER. Okay, more like me squashing it.


29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
My mum.


30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
I try not to, but sometimes, it has the negative effect I want it to have.


31. What is your natural hair colour?
Black, duh.


32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Idk, alot of people made me laugh at NSC today. (:


33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
Hmm.


34. What do you hear?
Some violin music coming from the TV.


35. Is your hair curly or straight?
Natural curls at the ends.

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
Uh, no, I'm not edible, tyvm.

37. Do you have a best friend?
Idk if I do.

38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past few days?
Define past few days.

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
ALL THE TIME. :DDDD

40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Hahaha, yeah.


41. Are you happy with life right now?
Not really, though I don't show it.


42. Are you currently jealous?
Maybe.

43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?
Earrings.


44. What were you doing on friday night?
Having bible study.

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yep. It wasn't a nice feeling, and I really don't want it to happen again.

46. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I hope not.

47. Is there anyone you're really disappointed in right now?
What do you think?

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
To get an MC cause I had the flu.


49. How late did you stay up last night and why?
Past 12, cause I couldn't sleep.

50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
No relationship can last for more than a year at this age. That's been rubbed in my face repeatedly, so much that I've gotten the message already/

Funny how a rainbow can make me smile, when it's a smile turned upside down.